Azzahra turn 3~

My second daughter, Azzahra had turn 3 for the past 2 days. Reminiscing 3 years back, she was the easiest child to be taken care of :)

Sakit

Kalau kau rasa tak dihargai

Tutuplah mata peganglah hati

Kalau kau rasa diri kau sunyi

Jangan bersedih aku disini

 

Walau hidupmu tumpas ku akan beri kerjasama

Bangkit wahai kawan hidup ini tak sempurna

Jangan selalu bersedih ku juga selalu terleka

Kesilapan lama bakal jadi rama-rama

 

Tapi aku sakit bila ramai keji

Sakit aku bukan sakit dihati

Jadi sakit aku pendam sendiri

Rasa sakit ini tak akan berhenti

Mengerti

Kuterpaksa hadap walau penat lari

Ku terpaksa jatuh bila penat diri

Ku terpaksa hilang walau ramai cari

 

Aku lupa ingatan

Jadi tolong ingatkan

Saat luar kawalan

Jadi tolonglah pesan

Tolonglah aku kawan

Aku ni manusia

Ku buat kesilapan

Ku manusia biasa

Percayalah

Ku yang berikan tangan

Jika engkau memerlukan

Jadi tolong jangan segan

 

credit: song lyric YonnyBoii Ft. Zynakal

Copycat

She is mirroring me ~copycat. That will remind me of the mistakes i've done unwitsed

Sunyi itu

Kadang-kadang tidak mahu meluahkan bagaimana. Rasa sunyi itu tak dapat saya hapus. Walaupun selama mengandungkan puteri kami saya selalu berkata, awak nanti akan jadi teman umi ya. Sekarang kehidupan sehari saya ditemani Farha. Kadang-kadang hujung minggu pula ditemani mak yang bersusah payah datang pergi dan balik untuk saya dan kadang-kadang 2 minggu sekali ditemani long-distance-hubby. 

Rasa sunyi itu paling saya terasa tiap kali menghantar mereka pulang. 

Tapi saya tahu, sebenarnya saya tidak sunyi. Saya ada Dia Yang Maha Esa.

kelahiran & kematian

Keluarga besar kami menghadapi 2 perkara di atas. Perancangan dan ketentuan Allah itu adalah rahsiaNya yang maha besar. 

Kelahiran 2 srikandi yang ditunggu dalam keluarga besar kami tidak menjadi kenyataan. Dan bila Allah berkata kun fayakun, demikian inilah yang perlu dihadapi.

Dan bagi saya yang berada di pihak kelahiran, tidak tahu mahu ber-reaksi yang bagaimana. Allah itu tidak akan menguji hambaNya dengan sesuatu yang ia tidak mampu. Dan saya tahu dugaan dan ujian bagi saya pula nantinya akan berbeza.

Doakan saya mampu dan kuat untuk hadapi segala. 

Our bundle of joy~

Alhamdulillah. Today mark 30 days of Nur Farha Nabilah in the family. Our bundle of joy, after 39 weeks and 4 days carrying her in my womb. 

Heartiest thank you to dearest husband for be by my side during the labour process. Be with me in the pain of contraction and all sleepless night taking care of Farha in the first two weeks of confinement. 

Me and Farha missed you so much, hubby. Travelling back and forth from Jakarta to Malaysia was only a matter of distance. Yet, our bonding will remain in heart.

Hugs and kisses to husband, Habil in Jakarta. ♡♡♡

Low

I had a big cry today, right after performing the Maghrib's prayer. Somehow i just don't know how it could happen. Since I am pregnant I am not keep tracking my blue moon. So when I am having a situation like this it also made me confused. Does it the hormone factor it just me?

So today, the thing made me cry was when I am talking to my little caliph in my tummy. Just so he/she know that both of us should be strong in facing all the tests together.

My soulmate was went to Jakarta for 2 days for a meeting and i already missing him. :)

Happiest person on earth

I am the happiest person on earth when my husband unexpectedly came home to Malaysia this weekend due to a short meeting. \○/. love you hubby~ ♡♡♡

04.11.2015

Sakit itu kifarah dosa

November is one of my fav month. Being tested by him with a sickness early of November until today and I realised it could help swap away my sin. As I am kept whining and being sad all the time, my husband keep on supporting me even we are far apart. It just lately I am not that the same strong person when I am not carrying our little caliph. 

By Wednesday of next week, InsyaAllah our little caliph will be 5 months old in my womb. Pray for the good things and be a healthy person. 

And almost everyday i misses my husband very much. Even he was away for only a week, I've a month waiting for him to come home to Malaysia. I think, maybe I should change my doa during prayers to be more specific and sound demanding so that my dearly sayang could come home soon to Malaysia to be with me and little caliph.

By the way, Happy Birthday to me, 29 years old on 4th November. The last year to cherish the 20's life :)

Pray for the good things for me, be a healthy person and be a strong person to lead the life ahead.