MIMPI
Saya bermimpi kelmarin.
Saya telah dilamar oleh seseorang.
Memang bahagia. =)
Tapi itu semua kan mimpi, sekadar mainan tidur.
p/s: dalam mimpi tu, saya menangis bila dilamar. Kalau jadi kenyataan, saya setuju sangat nak kahwin dengan dia. (gile desperate ke hape?) haha!
GIGI KU!
Saya sakit gigi.
Sudah 4 hari.
Gusi saya bengkak.
Bila saya ketawa atau senyum, saya rasa lain macam.
Haha!
p/s: saya amat tidak berselera untuk makan. Saya terpaksa melanggar pantang makan di McD semata-mata mahukan bubur semasa saya ke Shah Alam minggu lepas.(heaven gile bile dapat makan bubur, hehe) haish!
The Show by Lenka
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why
Slow it down, Make it stop Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much, Yeah, it's a lot To be something I'm not
I'm a fool Out of love 'Cause I just can't get enough
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone
I've tried And I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, It's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go And just enjoy the show
The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign and synchronize in time
It's a joke nobody knows they've got a ticket to that show
Yeah
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show
dum de dum
dudum de dum
Just enjoy the show
dum de dum
dudum de dum
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back, I want my money back
I want my money back, Just enjoy the show
I want my money back, I want my money back
I want my money back, Just enjoy the show
coba
Oh ya, cuti ini aku cuba untuk bermain gitar.
Sementara gitar RM350 milik adik ku itu tersadai di biliknya tidak salah aku mempelajari satu ilmu baru bukan. Betul juga kata kazen ku, kalau adik pandai main, kakak nya mungkin barangkali boleh juga.
Haha. Bermula dengan note, aku cuba memetik gitar. Berpandukan lagu kugiran Hujan, Bila Aku Sudah Tiada barangkali merupakan satu permulaan yang cukup senang bagi beginner seperti aku. Oh tidak!.. 2 jam mencuba, memang betul kata orang. Bukan mudah untuk bermain gitar. Mungkin jari jemari halus dan kecil seorang wanita seperti aku agak payah. Mengingat note itu agak mudah, tapi tangan yang tak sampai. Ada hikmah nya kenapa Yang Esa menjadikan tangan lelaki sedemikian rupa. Mempunyai kelebihan berbanding wanita.
Adik ku pulang. Cuti H1N1 katanya. Mungkin aku boleh berguru seminggu dengan dia? . Aku nyatakan kesimpulan yang aku cipta itu pada dia. Gelak.
“Long, kau kena banyak praktis tu..”
“Tapi tangan aku sakit la, tak sampai pun..”
“Lama-lama nanti pandai la. Mula-mula memang sakit..”
Niat aku untuk belajar bermain gitar sudah sedikit berkubur. Dia ke JB 3 hari. Bawa gitar sekali. Jalan-jalan dengan kawan kata dia. Aku tahu, bukan kawan tapi ‘kawan’
Aku kagum dengan dia. Main gitar dengan selamba sahaja. Aku tahu, dia mula sebagai drummer. Saban malam, bilik kami bersebelahan, selalu saja mendengar dia memetik gitar. Selalunya, lagu Dan Sebenarnya kedengaran.
p/s: tidak boleh hidup tanpa muzik, itu kata dia padaku..
melihat
Hobi baru.
Aku suka melihat dan memerhati.
Si anak kucing yang ku cerita dahulu, sudah makin membesar.
Dia juga seperti aku, suka melihat dan memerhati.
Suka memerhati buih-buih sabun yang mengalir semasa aku sibuk membasuh baju.
p/s: sampai bila mahu melihat dan memerhati. Mungkin sabar itu perlu.
Babysitter.
Me being a babysitter for a week at JB, made me realise that i long a go pass the teenage life. Being a watcher for 3 of my cousins which all of them still schooling quite a tough task.hehe.. hmm, let’s see.. 2boys at secondary level and a girl going to take UPSR exam.. aduiii,, somehow i wonder what’s my makcik do with their kids. Ya, it’s not an appropriate to question about their parenting but, i know somehow i might do the same as them (if only i wasn’t in the boarding school..hehe).. yep,, ‘lepaking’ every nite with the classmate whom you everyday met at the class, test your motor skills power, hmm, chat bout boys and girls at school plus neighbourhood and not least em,, what’s your latest song in ur handphone ek? Bole bluetooth tak?,,.hukhuk!.
Seriously, after my makcik and her husband came back from Penang after sending away Izyan, their first daughter to Politeknik Seberang Perai, i asked her..
Me: Makcik, memang selalu ke diorang macam tu tiap2 malam?
Makcik: A’ah, farah.. macam tu la..keja-kejap “Hafiz.....” pastu “Haziq.....”
Hmm, ok..
Somehow i realise parenting was not easy as we taught. Even we want the result to be like this, it usually would not come out as what you want. Anyway, being a babysitter was fun to me tough. Ala, keje kacang je..hehe. Early in the morning, made breakfast+swept the floor. Nearly noon, made lunch+laundry. Petang2 da relax sikit+made tea. Tapi yang best for that week was i could watched the tv channel from Singapore and Indonesia. Yela, my house back at Kluang ni xdpt semua channel tu cause using ASTRO. Hehe.
The night before i went home, we were having a sidewalk at the Danga Bay.. Pakcik decided to treat me cause he said that, “kalau dah sampai, kene la pegi jalan-jalan” ..ya, we round the whole Danga Bay riding a self-peddlling trishaw. Even the pay for the trishaw was quite expensive but i’ve lots of fun being there with them..
p/s: sound silly, but my dad missed me so much when i was away to JB much longer than he expected..hehe.
The view,,
I can see it from my room.
Yup, Gunung Lambak.
The morning view+evening was awesome.
White smoke in the morning.
Sunset in the evening.
p/s: ya, my room. I caught a week fever when reorganizing and decorating it. Too much dust perhaps!
MEAN !!!
Am i too mean?
Yup, somehow i know that i was too much.
Let the time pass by.
And see how far i would go.
See how far that i would like to let it go.
She asked the same question too much.
Until i know, myself couldn’t answer.
Unknown answer.
Moment of silent.
p/s: she cried.. i know that i was too hard. I just couldn’t let it go.
