Hey, that's my beach boy. \(•_•)/
| Laksa Power, Langkawi December 2014 | ♡♡♡
A child.
I'd reduced my time browsing FB since married. Usually i am letting the FB apps login until I'd discovered that FB was the contributing factor that drained my phone's battery. Alas, the main factor was to avoid jealousy.
Yup.
Despite of being happy in married life, yet i am or should i say we are, keen of having a children. Or lots. Five maximum, three minimum.
I restraint myself for not login to FB. Restraint myself for seeing other people enjoyment by expecting a children, having a children, updating status about their children. I am not mad at them yet I am gratefull for the rahmah and rizq that sent by Him to them that our turn yet to be.
Turning to the 5 months of married life, long distance relationship, emotionally depressed, family issues. The list would go on. However, the counting was nothing compared to other married couple that expecting the same that probably was much more longer than me and there are some not distine for having any.
I.should.be.gratefull.for.whatever.i.had.in.life.
Don't talk mood
I just feel that I do not want to talk to anyone today. I do not want to talk to anyone about that topic. I do not want to talk to anyone.
Since that Year Planning had come out, I feel that I do not want to talk about it.
Finger nail
I'm cutting the finger nails yesterday. And that's remark the end of being the bride's signature. I'm gonna miss the red color of it after 4 months its with me.
Its sad because I'm not sharing this moment with him. Even more sad that i had foresee this things (me, cherish the greatz moment in life without him) long time ago, before we're married.
T.R.Y
Sometime, when seeing the picture of us together, that feeling grows. And what's hurt was to contain that feeling so that it would not make my heart hurt.
I'm hoping this kind of feeling would last forever. Would last till our last breath. Would last till the end of life and hereafter. Would last till Jannah. Because each time after my pray, i would recite the same doa.
Tears gone stream from my cheek. And hoping it will soothe the ache. I am trying hard for us. I am trying hard to get through all of it.
I am trying. And will keep on trying.
Well wishes
I only realize that when cleaning the house. That's came with the paper bag that contained birthday present of handbag and chocolate on last November :)
Somehow, i value the friendship with them. Seeing those, made me speechless.
Kifarah
I'm having sore throat. So far no sign of flu and fever. Pray hard not infected to those. Preventive action, clinic medicine-check. Sore throat medicine-check. Tamarind drink-check. Cap badak drink-check. And my so-called-dinner.
Can't pamper myself to hubby though. :(
Sleepless
It's 1230 am. I must get some sleep. Sunday is a working day for me. It must be the quick nap in days effect. Or too much absorbing things today. Calling the husband, just to say that i miss him badly. Misses his voice and jokes. Misses his present. No other intention.
I should get some sleep. Quite a big day tomorrow and also the day after tomorrow. Pray that all will smoothly in the track. I should get some sleep. To shoo away the light headache that's came to me. Came in this late evening.
I should go to sleep. The stomach had woke up. Calling for food. I decided to only fullfill the stomach's wish tomorrow. Yeah, breakfast.
I should go to sleep. It's getting late. Let alone the world and its problem. Should continue picking up those tomorrow. Now, to set aside the mess up and live happy and freely.
