She is mirroring me ~copycat. That will remind me of the mistakes i've done unwitsed
Sunyi itu
Kadang-kadang tidak mahu meluahkan bagaimana. Rasa sunyi itu tak dapat saya hapus. Walaupun selama mengandungkan puteri kami saya selalu berkata, awak nanti akan jadi teman umi ya. Sekarang kehidupan sehari saya ditemani Farha. Kadang-kadang hujung minggu pula ditemani mak yang bersusah payah datang pergi dan balik untuk saya dan kadang-kadang 2 minggu sekali ditemani long-distance-hubby.
Rasa sunyi itu paling saya terasa tiap kali menghantar mereka pulang.
Tapi saya tahu, sebenarnya saya tidak sunyi. Saya ada Dia Yang Maha Esa.
kelahiran & kematian
Keluarga besar kami menghadapi 2 perkara di atas. Perancangan dan ketentuan Allah itu adalah rahsiaNya yang maha besar.
Kelahiran 2 srikandi yang ditunggu dalam keluarga besar kami tidak menjadi kenyataan. Dan bila Allah berkata kun fayakun, demikian inilah yang perlu dihadapi.
Dan bagi saya yang berada di pihak kelahiran, tidak tahu mahu ber-reaksi yang bagaimana. Allah itu tidak akan menguji hambaNya dengan sesuatu yang ia tidak mampu. Dan saya tahu dugaan dan ujian bagi saya pula nantinya akan berbeza.
Doakan saya mampu dan kuat untuk hadapi segala.
Our bundle of joy~
Heartiest thank you to dearest husband for be by my side during the labour process. Be with me in the pain of contraction and all sleepless night taking care of Farha in the first two weeks of confinement.
Me and Farha missed you so much, hubby. Travelling back and forth from Jakarta to Malaysia was only a matter of distance. Yet, our bonding will remain in heart.
Hugs and kisses to husband, Habil in Jakarta. ♡♡♡
Low
I had a big cry today, right after performing the Maghrib's prayer. Somehow i just don't know how it could happen. Since I am pregnant I am not keep tracking my blue moon. So when I am having a situation like this it also made me confused. Does it the hormone factor it just me?
So today, the thing made me cry was when I am talking to my little caliph in my tummy. Just so he/she know that both of us should be strong in facing all the tests together.
My soulmate was went to Jakarta for 2 days for a meeting and i already missing him. :)
Happiest person on earth
I am the happiest person on earth when my husband unexpectedly came home to Malaysia this weekend due to a short meeting. \○/. love you hubby~ ♡♡♡
Sakit itu kifarah dosa
By Wednesday of next week, InsyaAllah our little caliph will be 5 months old in my womb. Pray for the good things and be a healthy person.
And almost everyday i misses my husband very much. Even he was away for only a week, I've a month waiting for him to come home to Malaysia. I think, maybe I should change my doa during prayers to be more specific and sound demanding so that my dearly sayang could come home soon to Malaysia to be with me and little caliph.
By the way, Happy Birthday to me, 29 years old on 4th November. The last year to cherish the 20's life :)
Pray for the good things for me, be a healthy person and be a strong person to lead the life ahead.
14 weeks
I am 14 weeks pregnant. Twice going to the clinic (1) on 6 weeks to confirm the pregnancy (2) on 9 weeks to open the pink book. Since I am going to the private clinic, each time of visit will have a scan session. Alhamdulillah all of the sessions went well with my second visit had a chance to see the fetus' heartbeat.
And for my third visit due end of this week, I am losing my faith. I prayed that it is not what I am thinking of. Noticing that the tummy aren't making a positive progress. That's what am afraid for.
Hopefully everything will goes well.
sharing~
Dari DMFK.
Suami isteri yang berpegang tangan itu berserta perasaan kasih sayang, maka akan gugurlah dosa-dosa kecil.
