When I'm reached to my weakest point, tears would be much a release. O Allah, please give me strength to face all obstacle and any test that been sent to me.
Being istiqamah
Turn to a new leaf is definitely not an easy journey. Being istiqamah was the hardest part. Anyone could said to do this thing and that thing. But to continuously sustain and keep on the right pace wasn't that easy.
I am talking to myself, specifically.
To be a good muslimah, properly covering the aurah as per syariah. I am slowly moving toward that. Yet, so many things had to let go. I am cleaning out my closet and adding some collections that newly bought.
The Let It Go song would be a metaphor to this. :) Somehow, thinking back all over again, despite of had put on weight that force me to change the size from S to M or L, this is for good. Chasing the Jannah.
Lillahita'ala~
Technology
I'd came across a video at one of the social media. And shared it at my wall. Indeed somehow there are some truth about the video. All about technology, social media, gadget and the unhealthy social life.
Looking back at my life history, I am a smartphone user since 2012. Bought a Blackberry due to working environment of frequent travelling. And late 2013 bought a Samsung due to become a postpaid user.
Afraid of the consequences as highlighted in the video, I prayed not to be one of the victim. Cherish the normal life and treat technology as one of the value added and tool to simplify the daily life, not dependent on it.
At one point, I missed my Nokia 3310.
Rainism
It must be the rain.
I always lose to rain.
Wasn't pampered myself either.
And today after three days of audit visit at the mill, it seems that I'd worn out. Despite of having fun on the learning process - heat, high, smell, grease, oil, cake, nut, shell, fiber, dirt, steam - I am ok. Until today.
Continuing the audit journey at another mill and I am about to faint just above the cages on the railing at the stereliser station.
Congrats fara! Its an indicator that you need a rest. (^_^)//
Fear
Fear is something that I'm not sharing with anyone. Discussing it publicly, specifically. Being the eldest in the family is mostly I'm feared about. Responsible for showing a good things, fullfill hopes and ambitions. And today the bff were discussing on parenting. That's fear me too. But people say a woman could do anything, surviving on most situation cause they are gifted with intuition. Despite of counting days to half complete the life cycle of a woman, that's also fear me too. Perhaps I've done too much of thinking or still not feel comfortable on the changes. Reminder to me, please stop over-analyzing things, make way for the naturality.
Hoping for strengths to face the fear. Not for joining the Fear Factor.
One thing, learn to have less expectation or you'll grief. People say expectation will kill you.
